For Her Own Good

She's not going to like it, and I'm a little late, but Alyssa is going to get a flu shot. I wanted to give it to her a month ago, but she kept on getting sick and they wouldn't give it to her while she was sick and running a fever. I've FINALLY gotten her well, so we're going to go. I need to get one as well, but I'm not as worried about ME as I am HER. I don't tend to put my fingers in my mouth and I try to avoid people (sick AND well) at all costs! I don't WANT to let them stick a needle in my baby girl. I was always the one blubbering and crying when she had to get her shots as a baby, but I know it's for her own good. The flu is a nasty thing and I want to keep my little girl as well as possible this winter!

Back To School

Today was Alyssa's first day back after her Thanksgiving holiday. It was her very first REAL holiday since she started to school. I just hate the whole thing sucked out loud. I had SO many things I wanted to do, none of which I managed to actually do, with the exception of going to Mississippi. Oh well. There's always Christmas, I suppose.

I always freak out when she goes to school. I guess it's because she's only been in school for right at three months and has been sick three times already. I just worry about all the contact she has with other kids when I'm not around to remind her not to put her fingers in her mouth after playing with a toy that a kid gave her after wiping snot off his or her nose. Nasty, I realize, but kids are nasty little creatures!! I've tried to instill in my child the importance of hand washing and keeping her hands away from her mouth, but she is still only five years old and doesn't remember EVERYTHING I've told her! All I can do is hope and pray, really.

My Turn Yet?

I'd like to get a little time too....a little time when I get to shuck my parental responsibilities and throw my kid off on someone else. I need a break just as much, if not more, than anyone else I know...and, yet, I'm the ONLY one who doesn't get that. I'll never, as long as I live, understand why God would give me a child KNOWING that I'm not going to have parents or in-laws to help me and offer me a break from time to time. I'm basically alone here. It's great, and I say that sarcastically. I will NEVER find this element of my life to be fair. I do the best I can. I'm devoted and faithful. I'm creative and selfless, in most cases. I always put my daughter ahead of myself and I've sacrificed SO much just so she can have things she wants or needs. So, when is it going to be MY turn to reap a benefit?

The Song In My Head

Ever since I rewatched yesterday's episode of General Hospital I've had this song stuck in my head. It was a real tearjearking moment, with Nikolas hysterical over Emily's dead body, pointing a gun at his own chest in a real "Romeo and Juliet" type moment, and Jason risking his own life for the love of Elizabeth, etc. Anyway, the song was called "Underneath the Night" and it's by a girl named Rie Sinclair. It's a beautiful song and I can't wait for it to be added to iTunes so I can buy it and put it on my iPod! I was in tears during that part of the show. I'm not sure if it was the song or the fact that they were displaying a type of love on that show that is unlike anything I've ever experienced myself and I'm pretty sure doesn't even exist in real life. Whatever it was, it struck an emotional cord with me.

Sick Baby

I had to take Alyssa to the doctor yesterday, after a coughing fit unlike anything I've ever seen in my child. They told me she has bronchiolitis. That's something I'm not familiar with, but they gave her an antibiotic, which is kinda silly, since bronchiolitis is viral and won't be cured with an antibiotic...but whatever! They also gave me some cough medicine which is about as powerful as a sugar pill and some Albuterol. I don't know what does what but I just want my baby well. It's miserable to hear her coughing and know that I can't do anything to help her.

On top of that, my mother in law is in the hospital again in Shreveport, so I've been doing the majority of Alyssa's illness by myself, because Greg has been in Shreveport with his mom and brother. I just want everyone to be okay so life can go on like normal again!!

Update Time

Well, she did it. She missed the party. I felt bad for her, because she REALLY wanted to go and was so disappointed that her fever lingered so she couldn't go. I just hope the mom doesn't think I wasn't telling the truth. I'm always so paranoid when it comes to things like that. I don't want anyone to think I'm avoiding their kid's party for whatever reason. I really wanted her to go to this one because this girl came to hers and paybacks are important to me. I did get a gift for her, though, which we will be delivering to school next week.

Aside from that, she seems to be feeling a bit better. Her temp was down to 99.0 last time I took it. The highest it got to was 101.1. Of course, as usual, I've been going it alone, which sucks. I need a day off!

Why Fridays???

My daughter is about 8 weeks into her first year of preschool. She only goes 3 days a week for 3 hours a day, so that's a total of 9 hours a week, and YET, we're going on our third illness. And, they ALWAYS start on Friday. And the last two have been the Friday before someone's birthday party on Saturday. She's been invited to three parties and is about to miss her second one out of the three. I'm seriously considering homeschooling next year because I can't take this stress! Luckily, this one doesn't seem too bad (knock on processed particleboard), so there's still a chance she might get to attend the party after all, and, at the very least, she might not miss another day of school. I just hate when she's under the weather.

Ten On Tuesday

Today's "Ten on Tuesday" theme is "10 Words to Describe Me". This should be fun!

1. Moody--seriously, I can go from 0 to bitch in NO time!

2. Impatient--when I want something, I want it NOW!!

3. Devoted--I may not be the most patient mom in the world, but I'm sure as heck dedicated to it!

4. Creative--I'm always looking for ways to express myself artistically.

5. Loud--I WILL be heard, no matter what!

6. Sentimental--I cry every year on my baby's birthday (and sometimes my own--only for a different reason!)

7. Childish--don't we ALL have our moments?????

8. Mental--I haven't eaten a meal in almost 4 years, for crying out loud....you don't get more crazy than that without being committed!

9. Overwhelmed--I want so much more out of my life than I know how to get.

10. Multi-faceted--this is the BEST word to describe me!

Naptime!

I've only been up a little over an hour, but I think I could take a nap! My sister and her boyfriend came in last night and spent the night here on their way to Arlington to pick up his "newsed" car and we stayed up talking until midnight. Then, I got up at 7:30, although I had been awake for a while. And now, at 8:47, I'm tired again. Luckily, I don't have all that much on my agenda for the day, so maybe I can get a nap later. I'm hoping that Tara and Kevin will decide to stay here again tonight, because I get very little time to really spend with my sister. Maybe they'll come back.

Game Day

I'll be the first one to say "who cares", generally, but this particular matchup should be fun to watch. LSU is playing Alabama today. The "fun" part is, Alabama's coach, Nick Saban, used to coach LSU and let them to the National Championship, which they won, in 2003. He decided to take a job coaching the Miami Dolphins and a lot of LSU fans got pretty fired up about that. So, now he's coaching Alabama and all the LSU fans are hoping for a HUGE win! I'm not sure if they'll get HUGE, but I know they have a good chance to win, because LSU is a great team. Don't get me wrong, I don't know much about football, nor do I care, but even I can read scores and records! GEAUX TIGERS!!!