What the Heck?!?!?!?!

I'm having a hard time wrapping my finger around the deaths of WWE wrestler, Chris Benoit, and his family. When I first heard the news from my husband on Monday night, I was stunned and saddened. Then, when I woke up Tuesday and read that it was an apparent murder-suicide and that Chris was responsible, I was flabbergasted! I remember watching him on Raw and other wrestling shows when Greg and I first started dating, but I'm not going to pretend to have known him in-depth, through interviews or anything else. But, it still shocks me that a parent would kill their child. I'm not "mother of the year" material by any means. I don't always play dolls when I should and my child sometimes goes to bed without a bath and every now and then I forget to make her brush her teeth. She even eats fast food when Mommy is too lazy to cook. But I would NEVER, EVER, EVER do anything to cause her physical harm, much less death! What goes through a parent's mind as they're smothering their child???? I feel for the little boy....I feel for his mother....but most of all, I feel for Chris Benoit, because you've GOT to be one messed up SOB to take the life of your own son and I'm enough of a God-fearing girl to believe that it's something HE'LL be paying for in his afterlife!