Where Is This God?

I have had a horrible time with religion lately. I cannot understand why the Lord giveth and then He taketh away....nor do I get why all this taking away seems to happen to ME! Every time something good happens that I THINK is going to make my life better (finally), it does not seem to last. I just could not possibly be more tired of getting my hopes up, only to have them dashed in defeat. Why can good things never happen to me? People might argue and say that I have a beautiful little girl and I completely agree with that. There is not a day that goes by when I am not thankful to God for giving her to me. But, what about taking care of her? Why would He give me such a precious gift and then take away my means of providing for her, without bothering to open a door for something else? I have certainly done enough praying for change and inspiration, but to no avail. I guess I just lack devine listening skills. I just cannot decide what I think about God and religion. I will always believe in the existance of God, no doubt about that. I could never be atheist. I just sometimes question whether or not He exists in the way that the Bible wants us to believe. Would a loving God blantantly ignore me when I get down on my knees, crying and begging merely for guidance to find the way to get my life back on track? And, lest we forget that I was orphaned at 16. Act of a loving God? I just am not sure anymore. I want to believe that God is up there and He watches over me and loves me. I want that more than anything. I just have very little to use as evidence of that fact. ALL I have is my daughter, and, although that IS huge, if I cannot be the mother she needs, then did God really love HER??